How to find "yourself" again.
Updated: Nov 15, 2022
Maybe the journey isn't what we think it is.
I don't know where you are in your journey, but a couple of years ago I was lost in mine.
On the surface it looked like I was doing well in my career, getting a pretty good job with a pretty good pay.
It was a path I thought I was "supposed" to be on, perhaps because that's what everyone else seemed to be doing.
And if I had just forced myself to stay on, I knew that our future (my wife and I) would be pretty safe and secure too.
But even with the job security, "social status", or whatever it is I thought I had going, something just didn't feel right.
It felt like I was moving towards a future version of "me" that was devoid of who I truly am.
And the "me" at that time knew it too - I didn't like who I had become at all.
Now I'm not going to kid you, because it really wasn't an easy to do, but healing isn't easy is it? And so I went on a journey of un-becoming all the things that wasn't me.
Starting first by leaving a job that sounded important, but felt absolutely meaningless and empty.
And a year and a bit on, that's where I am now, not earning anywhere near what I used to earn, but thoroughly happy with being me.
Because this has been a journey of finding myself again, each day, getting closer and closer to being the "me" that I knew I was meant to be.
Doing the things I deeply love at my core, drawing, writing, reading and spending my time with my loved ones, spreading kindness and helping people.
And all the while on the inside, with it getting louder each day, I can hear my younger self shouting with glee.
Let's keep going.
Still on a journey,