Do you have a messy "dark side" too?

And how to let that part of you heal.

Dedicated to my own dark side.

Who still likes to come out at times.

And make a mess out of things.

I guess it's the part of me that's still messy.

Operates in chaos.

For what reason, sometimes I don't know why.

--

For a long time now I've hated this dark side of me.

Because it was the part of me that also seemed to scream:

"SEE, you are unloveable!"

"In the end you'll CHASE EVERYONE away"

"Even your LOVED ones won't stay..."

And for a long time now I've tried to battle it.

Punching it and fighting this side of me.

Trying to make it shut the heck up.

But it didn't seem to like that at all.

And bigger and yet even darker it grows.

--

See, I see you.

I even wrote a post about you so you know this is how much I recognise and acknowledge you.

You try so hard to be bad and mean and all so terrible.

But I get it now, what you want is to be seen.

And know it's okay you are the way you are now.

Because it's okay we are messy sometimes too.

No one's perfect.

We don't need to try to be perfect.

We can still be messy humans.

And still be loved.

Take care,

Hernping

💙

It's been a tough week and there was a part of me that just wanted to scream how hard it was.

So here I am acknowledging it.

Not having scream back at it, but listening and acknowledging it.

And somehow my heart grew lighter as I wrote and processed this. With whatever fragments of darkness all falling away and turning into lightness.

:)

You can do this too okay?

Let's keep going

#darkside

#frustration

#innerchildhealing

#selfacceptance

#allfeelingsarevalid